Butter Fingers

Do you ever have the feeling that things are slipping through your fingers? And you try desperately to hold on, but it just seems impossible.

If I want to get together with my friends (school and outside) together, it's always me who has to organize it. It's not like I'm a great organizer. Heck, I'm a lousy organizer! I get stressed, anxious, nervous...

I am not good at it. 

The sad part is it's always me who has to organize it because, if not, no one bothers. They all say: 'You do it, you are better than me at that.' But how could that be true if they haven't even tried?

The thing is, I want to tell them I won't do it again, that I am tired of it, that it looks as if I'm the only one that cares for our friendship.

But I can't. I can't because I'm scared that they won't do anything. That they'll slip through my fingers, that what I've worked for all this time will just break so easily. That I'll get to see that I was really the only one who cared.

Kipa

My First Award

First of all I would like to thank the amazing Em-illi for this award which I am very excited about as it is my first one =).

So,basically I have to tell you 10 things about myself...

1. I was born purple. Literally. The doctors had to help me breathe. I couldn't do it on my own. Like most things.

2. My best friend when I was in playschool bullied me non-stop. She is still one of my closest friends. Fortunately, the bullying stopped a long while ago =P.

3. I am thrilled and terrified at the same time of next year. I want to start college so badly, but I know that I am going to miss my friends sooooo much. They are everything to me.

4. I am scared that I won't be accepted into any of the UK universities and that I will have to stay in Madrid instead. I really am excited about doing the college experience away from home.

5. I am in love with my city. It is my true love.

6. I am, weirdly enough, scared of alcohol.

7. I say outloud what I'm writing. All the time.

8. I've never gone through the phace were I hated my parents, life, rules... normal teenage things to hate. I've always felt like a weirdo for being such a content teenager.

9. People who are constantly depressed and complaining about life annoy me. I believe that life is a gift and that I am very lucky, and anyone who doesn't see it that way is an ungrateful person.

10. I believe that I have an invisibility cloak attached to me, as no one ever sees me. The strange thing is that, most times, I see this as something positive.

I would like to pass this award to:

Sophia from Still Winter After All...

Catherine from  a life in seven billion.

"In the light of the Moon"

Laura Marie from   a diary of little things & curiosities

Liss from  Daydream Lily Blog

Natalie from Toast and Cereal

Erimentha from  ~The Little Blog of Happiness~

Sadly, I am still new so I don't know that many more blogs!

Thank you fot listening, as always.

Kipa

To my dearest friends

~Somewhere between the procrastination
...And the homework
...And the incessant forwards
...And the friendships
...And the nasty cafeteria food
...And the calls to each other complaining about crushes

~Somewhere between the phone calls to old friends
...And the "I miss you's"
...And the "I love you's"
...And the "What are we doing tonight's"
...And somewhere between all of the changing & growing..

~Somewhere between the classes
...And the skipping classes
...And the studying for tests
...And the pretending to study for tests
...And the downright not studying for tests...









~I forgot.

...I forgot what high school is all about.
...I forgot what it meant to cry
...I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy.
...And that pretending to be smart doesn't make you smart.
...I forgot that you can't just forget the past in fear of the future.
...I forgot that you can't control falling in love
...And that you can't make yourself fall in love.





~I learned that I can love.

...I learned that it's okay to mess up
...And it's okay to ask for help
...And it's okay to feel like crap.
...I learned its okay to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day.
...I learned that sometimes the things you want most you just can't have.
...I learned that the greatest thing about high school isnt the parties or the drinking or the hook-ups...
...It's the friendships which means taking chances.
...I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which we most need to talk about.
...I learned that letters from friends are the most important thing
...And that sending cards to your friends makes YOU feel better.

~But, basically, I just learned that my friends
...Both old and new
...Are the most important people to me in the world
...And without them, I wouldn't be who I am today 






So I just wanted to tell you that...

xD





Kipa






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