Change

{So sorry for not posting in a while. Forgive me? Please?}




Hmm...I think I have a problem. You might think I'm kidding but it actually may be serious. I think I malfunction. No,it's not that. What is it then?

Oh,I know! I am not adapted to my environment. That sounds like biology, which I haven't done in a while, but it also sounds quite right.

Why?

Well, because, I absolutely abhor change. I hate it. I just can't take it. I know it is supposed to be good but it scares me to death.  Not knowing what that change will bring me, and what it won't bring me.

Some time ago, I read this quote from Everwood(such a good show, it's a shame it ended) about this and I loved it. I suppose it's because I sooo feel this way. Maybe you do too? So here I leave it with you. I hope you like it:


The more things change, the more they stay the same. I'm not sure who the first person was who said that. Probably Shakespeare. Or maybe Sting. But at the moment, it's the sentence that best explains my tragic flaw, my inability to change. I don't think I'm alone in this. The more I get to know other people, the more I realize it's kind of everyone's flaw. Staying exactly the same for as long as possible, standing perfectly still... It feels safer somehow. And if you are suffering, at least the pain is familiar. Because if you took that leap of faith, went outside the box, did something unexpected... Who knows what other pain might be out there, waiting for you. Chances are it could be even worse. So you maintain the status quo. Choose the road already traveled and it doesn't seem that bad. Not as far as flaws go. You're not a drug addict. You're not killing anyone... Except maybe yourself a little. When we finally do change, I don't think it happens like an earthquake or an explosion, where all of a sudden we're like this different person. I think it's smaller than that. The kind of thing most people wouldn't even notice unless they looked at us really close. Which, thank God, they never do. But you notice it. Inside you that change feels like a world of difference. And you hope this is it. This is the person you get to be forever... that you'll never have to change again. 

Kipa