There are some people who are constantly telling me that I ask for too much. That I should relax. That I should call more people "friend" and less people "aquaintance". That I should trust more easily.
And maybe they are right. Maybe I've built my walls too high. So high that only the ones who persevere manage to get through. But why would I let someone in who hasn't showed me anything? So they can hurt me again? No thank you, that happened before, and I know better than to repeat my mistakes.
I suppose that what people have done to me has shaped me in a way that I don't really like. And I would very much prefer if they wouldn't have had an impact on my life, just for my own pride, but I can't help it.
This is who I am now. Someone who's scared of letting other people in.
However,when I do let people in, I give them all I have, all my love. I know I can do good in other people's lifes. The only problem is that no one has the time or will to find out who I really am, behind the mask. If they only knew...But no one cares.