If I want to get together with my friends (school and outside) together, it's always me who has to organize it. It's not like I'm a great organizer. Heck, I'm a lousy organizer! I get stressed, anxious, nervous...
I am not good at it.
The sad part is it's always me who has to organize it because, if not, no one bothers. They all say: 'You do it, you are better than me at that.' But how could that be true if they haven't even tried?
The thing is, I want to tell them I won't do it again, that I am tired of it, that it looks as if I'm the only one that cares for our friendship.
But I can't. I can't because I'm scared that they won't do anything. That they'll slip through my fingers, that what I've worked for all this time will just break so easily. That I'll get to see that I was really the only one who cared.